Fertilizer

OMG 

If it's my life. Well, not really but yeah. You see, during this pandemic, having a blog has been kind of a lifesaver. Not only because of the mini-community I've found (always with you, Constant Reader) but because it's an outlet I didn't know I needed. I'm not too social. I do have my crew, mind you. Some people from work who are cool and some friends I hang out with on the regular, but I don't really like big groups. So this medium has proven to be highly effective to somehow, share my thoughts. 

In any case, I was watching this video and I was laughing and then I was like, fuck me. This seems to be my life lately. This blog has become some kind of diary, an electronic reminder of what life has become, in this time of absolute fuckery and weird unintended isolation. But I have to say I like it. I like the oversharing, I like the unexpected connections. I like the camaraderie, unburdened by the trite and the quotidian and edged by the need of a confessional and the knowledge of having found a somehow kindred spirit. 

I like the fact that you know more about me than a ton of people who would profess to 'know' me because we've shared a moment or two. I feel I know you, too. I know that you that you put out there. It may not be the 'you' that most people know, but it''s the you I know. And I like that person. So let's keep sharing. It's a weird intimacy, this sharing so much and so little at the same time with so many people I don't really get to see. 

But there's one thing you do need to know: you've made my life less dull, less boring. You make going into my head a fun exercise. And for that, I thank you. So this is that moment in the movies where we wrap ourselves in the bedsheets and smoke a cigarette? What? Too French New Wave?

XOXO