Westerndigs

I like science shows. I am one of those people who really enjoy nature shows and watches the Discovery Channel and David Attenborough specials for fun. And I like looking at men I find attractive. So this online PBS show kind of fulfills both functions for me. I've always loved dinosaurs and science (I loathe math but I love science) but what I like best is to learn new things about animals and how the earth was formed, so this series is super cool to me. They talk about eras and periods and evolution and... science, in a way that's easily digestible and interesting at the same time. And one of the presenters gives me the tingle to mingle.

The thing is, I have to confess that now this show is in my list of favs on YouTube because I REALLY like Blake De Pastino. He's one of the hosts of PBS's EONS youtube channel and righteous eye candy IMHO.  He is, give or take a pair of jeans, the man of my dreams. Tall, leggy, fit but not too pumped, just the right age with bright eyes, big hands, a nice body and a great voice. Yep, he's got the voice and he's got the biceps. I like Mr. De Pastino because one, he's handsome and two, he comes across as very personable and smart. Nothing like a man pronouncing well the Latin name of a reptile family to get me in my feels. I have found out that I am really attracted to men who are smart. And who seem to care about the world. And if they are handsome, well, that's a plus, no? And it should come as no surprise that many of these men have BDE energy. Yep. Intelligence is sexy. After all, the brain is the biggest sex organ, no?

Of course, I was very, very curious about Mr. De Pastino's proclivities, because of course I was. I wanted to know who it was that I was lusting after. You see, I think that lusting after some unattainable straight dude makes the exercise of enjoying daydreaming one in futility. I like to think the men that make me hard are somehow accessible. I like to live the fantasy.  So one day, while stalking his Instagram, I came across a post where a Pansexual flag was hanging from the claws of a  little T-Rex (subtle!) and all my questions were answered: apparently, Blake is actually a member of the LGBTQ+ umbrella. Bingo! He would later post pics with a mask with the flag and it was confirmed. That's good news. He kept mentioning his 'children' and a 'lady friend' and putting things together from his Insta (yep, it's that easy to stalk someone) so I realized he may have gotten divorced recently and was seeing someone. Alas, he's taken. And he lives in Montana or something. So he's out of reach. Damn. And I learned all this with a few cursor strokes. I've told you many times social media is the devil.

But apparently I'm not the only one who's been thirsting after Mr. De Pastino and his hot jeans: he had an AMA on Insta and got tons of questions about what it felt to be such a hot commodity. He kind of distanced himself from it: he said thirst traps were not his thing, he did not like the objectification. The things is, he's interested in becoming an actor (some kind of late-blooming pastime?) so I think it's not the attention he does not like: it's the overt objectification. I really don't know how is it that he's going to avoid that, given that he's an obviously handsome man and that he's online, being ogled by many a pair of hungry eyes and will be doing acting soon, most probably increasing that ogling thousandfold. I find it endearing, though. A very sexy man kind of rejecting the desire he awakens in others. Hot.

I think my becoming a fan (and stalker) of Blake has of course to do with his undeniable charm, but also with the way he hangs. You see, while watching some of these science programs, I could absolutely see that Mr. De Pastino is most probably a boxer/boxer briefs kind of man for the way he hangs.  And to tell you the truth (and because I love oversharing) one of the things that can get me going faster than licking my nipples or giving me a good kiss is a man's dick print. Seeing a man's manhood gently pressing against his pants gets me started. One of my earliest memories of being totally turned on by a man has to do with public transportation and a man with a very revealing bulge standing up in front of me while I was sitting down. 

I remember very vividly that I was on the bus going somewhere, feeling very grown up (even I could not have been older than fourteen) and enjoying my trip when I felt something like an electric shock: I looked up from my book and found myself staring at a man's crotch. I realized I could follow the silhouette of his half-hard dick with my eyes. It was instinctive: I just could not stop staring. I could clearly see the outline of his dick, hanging left against the thin cotton of his pants. Why did he have a soft-on? What was he thinking about? Was he watching me watch him? I was both terrified he could see me watching and absolutely incapable of averting my gaze. And I got immediately hard. It was like lightning. You know, those hard-ons you have when you're a teen that feel like your dick is gonna break in your pants? That kind of erection. I was confused and turned on and elated and nervous and freaking out. All at the same time. 

It was an absolutely unnerving experience, so new to me and very, very hot. I had always known that I liked men, but that time on that bus I felt unbridled lust for the very first time in my life. It was such a realization. Lust is such a powerful emotion, one that it's so often mischaracterized and underappreciated. We should appreciate lust more. It comes and goes and it's not always attached to whom it should be attached, but it's a fantastic feeling. I would feel that same kind of reaction later in life with some very special men, but that was the first time it hit me: I loved dick. And I loved men. I would go on to get dickmatized many times during my adult life, but that first taste of lust has stayed with me ever since. And I have Blake to thank for having reminded me of that moment.

Now, isn't it great when somebody reminds us that we are really, really alive? Somebody who is giving us the tingle to mingle while talking about extinct creatures and science? Thank you, Mr. De Pastino, for letting me ogle you. And for helping me learn something about paleontology and anthropology at the same time. Hope your acting career takes off. Will miss you in EONS, but will hopefully see more of you on the screen in some series.

XOXO